"Vulcan"

I’m stuck in my own

Orbit. Losing track of all the

Rocks flying over me.

Can’t help but believe it.

Believe that I found something.

It’s gotta be real.

I’m searching and searching.

Yet like Icarus this dream burns up in sorrow.

I’m wandering the stars

Trying to find a place where

I can belong because

It is all an asteroid belt of emotions.

Want to see me break apart?

Well why don’t you come

And see me fall?

Like a shooting star? Or rather Icarus near the sun.

Either one doesn’t matter.

I’m searching for Vulcan.

Find me up in the stars because

I won’t be coming down.

You can tell me it is all insane.

Maybe I’ve lost my way,

But it is too late.

This is what I got to show. It can’t be too late!

Searching in the stars

Oh how I wonder

Where you are.

Vulcan, my hero.

You’ll burn all the pain away.

Fuel my ego.

In the stars I search for you

Because on Earth I’m just nothing.

In you I find no fault,

We’re the same: misused, betrayed, and overlooked.

Maybe we could be the same

Yet maybe I should have been Icarus in the story.

I can’t help but search the stars.

Oh how I wonder

Where you are.

Vulcan, my paradise.

Sometimes I wonder

What it means to really cry with

Emotions. After all,

Who says I have them?

Maybe I’m overlooked

Because I cease to be.

I find no fault in myself

All but the one where in others I trusted.

On this earth I freak out.

Tore myself apart.

Lost to be theorized.

Can’t say this is what

I want because I never

Got to chase the shooting

Star that overshadowed me.

It’s all just so off,

Being adrift in space without

Joy. It’s all just a

Coffin.

Like Icarus I've flown

Too close to the sun,

Now cursed trying to find

Vulcan my paradise.