"Snowflakes"

All the snow turns into diamonds as the sky turns into shadow. 

Wondering where to go, 

But I'm cracking under the Low temperature.

 About to break harder than ice ever could fear of. 

We all wish for something we can be.

 Hoping that our desires can 

Light the way to stars. 

Anything to get away from what made us broken, right? 

Snowflakes are all different, 

But some are just unrecognizable. 

Neurodivergent or neurotypical. 

Shouldn't matter but these days we're all lacking empathy. 

Avalanches cave on us, 

Stuck in the cave thinking 

That we're got the light. 

Yeah, we got this right. 

Only to be the fools in the end who couldn't accept that we're living in darkness.

My breath freezes right in front of me. 

And the struggle is there To not fall asleep forever in the cold. 

Opened my mouth, 

But there never came an answer. 

Only a blizzard that'd soon bury me under.

 I'm crushing myself in the cold. 

This time I say there's no point in being bold.

And maybe it's the cold that got to me

 But I'm finally starting to feel numb.

 But the burning rage inside

 Makes it all the harder for Me to freeze to death when I'm burning. 

Wanna pretend that this is enough, 

that maybe I'm not Stuck in a snowstorm that's frozen me up. 

Power, fame, and glory are Kinda all feeling fake nowadays.

 Don't care about nothing but I need to stop this chilling Apathy or I'll find myself In a snowy ditch without a roof.

This cold is not enough. 

Need subzero even if I continue feeling null. 

Opened my heart and now it's submerged in my doubt. 

Can't hold on to what will make me slip. 

Can't always be stuck here doing this. 

Hate that I always come back more broken and colder than last time.

What do i say when I'm not 

Able to be happy like the others?

 Do I act like a snowman who's about to melt? 

No way are any snowflakes able to survive the incoming impact of their fall. At least we've both got that in common.

Wish I could say I’m enough but 

I’m still being told that I 

Need to find a shape like others 

That I’ll never be able to fit. 

Stuck in this winterworld, still frozen. Everyone’s happy and joyful while I’m lost. 

Frozen in a grave without an exit. 

Existing just to exist isn’t satisfactory. 

The snow covers the wishes that we all had.

I've been trying to brace the cold,

But I'm frozen from the core to the soul.

Why would it end, it gets rolling downhill.

Call me Siphyius because I'm just pushing a boulder.

The snow falls, the leaves are all vanished

Since they seek to hide from the crystal clear

Might of the shivers that burn us all alive.

Still the only one who never made made it to the sea, drowning in the cold deep.

It takes pure skill to be a snowflake unique enough to be rejected.

It takes pure luck to be numb just like me.

The ice cracks and life falls underneath.

Escape the artic cold only to get another taste of how it feels to want warmth and joy.

Am I doing something wrong by not being happy this time around?