"Psychotic Break"

Your twisted smile keeps me awake 

As I’m trying my best to stay away 

From my own insecurities 

That keeps on haunting me. 

We’re both outcasts to this 

Side of the human race so 

Why should we care 

So much about what others think?

We’re both the same,

Both have been erased. 

Humiliated and shamed, 

So now we’re on the run from those who hate us being genuine and that’s ok.

This is all so wrong, your words 

Come out way too fast. 

It’s almost like a hallucination.

You’re mad at me for the basic things but then smile as you say “come along with me”.

Your energy just keeps me mesmerized all the time.

I should be worried, they’re all mad 

When you walk in the room but 

Not to me, it’s always fun to be wild and on the loose.

Can’t I say I just find this all fun…

You jump in my face saying that I need 

A woman who’ll love and understand me. 

So I take your arms and pull you closer as I make a smooth embrace.

The world can call us freaks, 

It could even put your hate onto me.

But who cares, they’re all just 

Upset of what we’ve got.

Now I’m running along with you

In this psychotic break. 

Losing my mind as you change every minute 

Of the day like a broken clock on an endless play at broadway.

You wrap your arms around me, 

Telling me that you’re trapped in 

A room that you can’t get out of. 

Hate that I can’t relieve you of the pain because for me it’s the same.

Out of your lips comes so many words and 

So many thoughts that I don’t even believe you 

Yourself are aware of. 

No, that can’t be it. You’re just unique like me right?

But we run away from the countless enemies 

Who wants us gone. Any second thoughts I get 

Are thrown out as I’m trading my own depression 

For a thrilling chase of my life.

You call me up when your sad 

And I feel good to be wanted. 

But then the dopamine goes out 

Once I see you’re just out of it, unable to find any meaning.

Your lips comes onto mine, 

This feels wrong. 

But to me it could only feel right. 

I’m lost in this screenshot of an odd time. 

You take my hand as we run away,

Run, run from the things that want us to break.

They don’t understand why we’re this way. 

They don’t wanna help, just toss us away.

I'm so sick of how they’re treating you. 

They treat you like you’re out of control, 

They don’t understand how I see you.

But one day, you call me. 

I rush into your room only to see 

You staring at the mirror crying asking 

Yourself “why oh why do I wanna die?”

I try to hold you but the tears keeps on flooding

Your face regardless of what I say. But then

Like a twisted mirror you smile and try to laugh the pain away…

We run run away from all of our worries, 

But I’m scared that all you’re doing is 

Having a psychotic break. 

My feelings for you can only go so far, 

Because you need help that I can’t 

Myself provide! I wish that I could 

Cure you but even I feel depressed and dead inside!

The clock keeps on ticking, 

We’re both drowning. 

Your lips make out the words that it’s all fine 

But all I see above your smile is tears indicating that you’re crying.

I can’t say that any of this from now on is okay. 

The noises of sirens chase us as the sun starts to go down. 

And I hate that I can’t do something because I’m 

Already dead inside from my own pain.

The sirens are chasing us as the sun starts to fade.

And we reach a cliff. There’s no way I’d ever let you 

Jump alone…

But even I can’t help but hold onto you before we take 

The leep ourselves. I love you too much to let you ascend to 

Heaven on your own!

I hug you and tell you everything that is on my 

Mind even if you’re crying! 

I gotta try to help you as the car 

Cops close in on us.

I give you the best kiss of my life,

Hoping that you understand what you mean to me…

We’re surrounded with no place to run, 

But until we’re torn apart by force I won’t let you fade alone.

We’re both taking up space in our own depressive spirals.

No one remembers our names, but we try to make it out 

With a positive outlook.

Sirens blare at us as the sun has fallen into the sea beyond 

This grand cliffside. 

You just cry as you hate the feeling that you’re not alright 

Denying reality… I hope that after all this you still love me.