Oh babe, don’t worry about me today.
Yeah, after all since when did you start
Caring about my heartache?
Best to take the long road home
After what we’ve been through
Because I hate just going
Through the same motions in this cycle.
The pearls on the floor scatter around
Like cats on a foggy bridge,
Unable to speak for themselves
as they get lost in the confusion.
Can’t help but say I’ve been
Through my share of broken hearts.
Each time I try to mend it
Without success.
Once I’m feeling a bit better
I try once more only to feel regret
For what I did. Oh
Yeah it’s all a mess regardless of what I do.
And it’s always you
Who I dread to go back to.
You and those lips of yours
Range from smiling to frowning from 0 to 100 really quick.
Can’t help but ask what makes
You feel this way?
Was it what I said or do
You always act this way?
Tell me baby because
Honestly these mixed signals
Are breaking me.
Why can’t we be normal and in love?
This is so complicated because
One moment you show me loving passion,
A heart of gold that desires me.
Then toss me aside, calling me names
And me putting me down.
Is it normal to give and give
Only for the lover to take and take?
I hate that I feel this way!
You’re blaming me for your
Mistakes! Why do we
Fight only to cause each other heartbreak?!
Can’t help but feel you do
This on purpose. What if
I just wanna have a woman
Who actually likes me? Because you’re making it hard to believe.
Upsetting you everyday and I dunno what I did.
You can’t even take a conversation without
Getting unreasonably emotional.
Was it really my fault or
Did you get drunk because you
Were so caught up in yourself
That you couldn’t see that you hurt me.
Because honestly I can’t keep
All of this up. My masking
Can only go so far as I’m willing to go…
And this heartbreak that you give me
Only feels like you think of me as a bad
Guy but it doesn’t make sense to me when all of the other girls
Are gawking at us, smiling saying to themselves: “oh what a sweet young couple”.
I believed I was the problem for so long
That I was so scared of moving on.
So scared that all I do is make people
Miserable just like you.
But then one day I learned the truth…
Rebounding and blaming me for your
Own faults.
Can’t believe I was used by you
For your own lusts!
All I ever wanted was
Real authentic love for myself!
But you tied me up in your
Own web of lies!
Called me the player but
You haven’t looked in the mirror!
And I’m sick of being called
The problem when I’m the one
Who’s broken!
You’re just hurting me with your
Lying emotions… I thought I was the problem
But all you did was use me for your own satisfaction.
It’s a scary thought to know that all along you just wanted to use me.
Can't turn the clock back,
The wounds go deeper than
Any of those sweet words you
Tried to inject my heart with.
Couldn't believe that you were the problem,
So the atonement felt like it had
To be placed on me to make the
Narrative work.
And I can't go back in time
To tell myself I'm being used.
And I can't go back
To fix myself before I fall apart again.
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