I swear to you this is the last
Time I’ll ever call your number.
You say you’re scared to hear me
But just know the pain is mutual.
I hate feeling this way too.
Don’t you see what I’ve been through?
But it’s okay because I haven’t seen what
Your story has been too.
Well, think of this as the last time.
I have to finally let go.
No matter what I do I
Gotta just walk away.
Can’t ever expect you
To really come back.
What would it fix anyways?
This has to end today.
Thought that I was always the
Sole problem, but maybe
It’s both of ours.
So I can finally let off some of the blame!
Wish I never fell into the gutter.
But it was all I could do
When everyone wanted
Me to be someone who I could never be.
Wish you and I weren’t
Ghosts trying to avoid
Each other in the afterlife.
I’ve been sick enough for so long
And I can’t let this keep going on.
This needs to end now. I’ve been lost for too long.
You’re not responsible for me.
You won’t let me finish my
Thoughts without telling me
That I need to stop.
What else is there left to say?
Don’t you see how much this
Has pained me!
But on the flip side I gotta
Say I never saw what you’ve been through either.
I can’t blame you.
But I really can’t keep
Blaming me either.
I’m done with these nightmares
With you running from me!
I’m done with all these people
Thinking I’m washed up and done for!
I admit it okay!
My ambition made me fall into
This twisted artificial taste.
It almost made me lose myself.
I wish I could blame them
All for how I ended up
But now I see that I still
Have to take responsibility.
I’m done falling into the black.
I’m done looking back.
I know it pains you that I have to say
This to you now but just know that this is for me.
Waiting for someone who doesn’t want to
Come back hurts most of all.
But at some point I need to learn
To finally let go.
At some point I need to realize
I need to live for myself.
And I need to learn to realize that
Life is needed without you.
Thought I wasn’t ever enough.
I lived everyday in atonement
Waiting for this idealistic redemption.
But just know that now
This is all dead and buried.
There’s nothing left I’ll ever say.
I’ll take the long road home because this place was never for me.
And just know that I never wanted to let you go.
But that's all I can do now.
Wish we could’ve let this have a
Happy ending, but there’s nothing I can do about you.
But there’s gotta be something I can still do for
Myself right?
All of this trying has had to been enough,
Trying to atone for my crimes.
I’ve been freed from the prison
But the cell has still been calling my name!
It's finally over, I can finally walk away.
Not more living endless dark days.
But now it’s all dead and buried,
As much as I wished it could’ve been
Like a zombie crawling out of the tomb.
This has to stay in the grave.
And I hate that it has to be
This way.
I know that you don’t take
Pleasure in it either.
But that’s why this makes
It so much harder.
Wish that you weren’t so
Paralyzed with your monotone voice but what else can I say to bring you back?
This time I’ll make sure it’s dead and buried myself.
Don’t you worry, it’s all gone now.
But I can’t live the rest of my days
This way!
I wish you could come back
But this is something I have to accept.
This is something that I have to accept…
This is something I have to accept!
Nothing left remains of us!
But I can’t just let myself stay dead
And buried!
I’ve been dying waiting to see you for so long!
But you never came back to see my face!
I’m done living for another chance at
This pointless atonement.
What can I say but I hate that it
Ended up this way?!
Let it be known that this day
I made it all dead and buried.
And this time I’ll be getting up
And throwing it all away.
No more sulking about what I couldn’t change!
Let the dead bury the dead from now on because I’m done here.
And if you ever come back and
Ask me for more,
I’ll look back and say that
You already have enough.
This time it's said and done.
Dead and buried!
I always tried to be enough!
But now I’m done trying to give it the light of day.
Wish I never fell into depression.
Wish I never lost you that day…
But this atonement has been more than enough.
And I’ll keep this dead and buried.
Acceptance is finally in my reach,
Let me finally grasp it.
I’m done playing this endless game!
I promise I’ll keep it dead and buried… Just let me finally walk away.
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