Commentary on "Heartbreak"

This poem recalls the toxic relationship I had in college. No matter what I would do, I would never feel safe or comfortable with the woman I was with. She would always string me along, acting like she wanted to spend time with me. Only to then be blamed for all of the problems in the relationship. I don’t want to get into more details but I wanted to illustrate those emotions I had in this poem because this affected me for a long time after she dumped this all on me and left. It made me wonder if I was good enough for a woman when I was only “hurting” them as she would put it. My romantic life after that became a shadow of what happened. I hated it, but no matter what I did this pain haunted me into my next one where it actually mattered. I thought I lost the ability to feel love. And now there’s no turning the clock back. 

I wanted this to be the first poem of my third collection: “Romantic Horror Story” to illustrate the poems I’ve always wanted to write for a long time. To be loved is a hard thing, especially in our current time. So why not enjoy telling the story of what it means to have your heart shattered, over and over and over again? 

In this collection there will be writing that has darker themes. I wanted to experiment and bring out new concepts.