The lightning strikes
Harder without stopping
To let me breathe a sigh
Of relief.
Been walking down this road
And haven’t found what
Makes this all worth it.
It’s all the same, no light to make this easier to walk through.
But could I say that I’ve had enough?
Because if I’m being honest,
I’ve been addicted to the pain for
So long that I don’t even wanna get out.
“Why think of brighter days?
It’s just a phase. I can stop
It when I wanna,
Keep telling myself that only
For these blackouts to
Take me out of it.
Fell into the abyss and had
Nothing to get me out,
Nothing but my voice lashing out!
But now I’ve found a way out.
I’m free now in this rain.
Running wild away
From what chased me to
The ends of the earth.
I lost so much that I didn’t
Realize that my reflection was
Of a different person now.
I never wanted to get out.
But I had to tell myself that
I just had to leave it all,
I was sick of being addicted
To the fall!
These blackouts kept
From seeing the truth,
But there’s a light that I can
Still see and I’ll reach with my every breath.
The roads are busy with people
Just trying to get on with their life.
Must be nice, having something
To stay the course for.
Meanwhile, there’s me.
Yeah I hate it all here,
And no one bothers to ask me
“Hey are you alright?”
I was lost in the darkness of the night,
Begging for anything to help me
Find any source of light to get myself out.
I wished that I could be someone else
For a change because I hated what lied in
My own reflection…
Was I truly that lost before?
There’s still a hope in me.
A voice that says there’s something that
I can still reach.
It all doesn’t have to be bleak.
Now I’m running wild outta here.
There’s a hope in me that’s springing up.
What I always wanted can be in my reach!
I’m running away from all that chased me
Into the night.
This light is my hope tonight.
No more comparing myself to photocopies!
These blackouts mean nothing to me,
I’m the light that I always needed for myself!
Running wild into the night,
I see the stars align as the path brightens up the dark.
I’m free! Free to be me!
No more fears, no more addiction to
The pain. No more wishing that I would
Be buried and fade away.
Running wild into my own life,
I’m done living a lie
Just to pretend that I’m someone that I’m not
Just for the sake of those photocopies accepting me.
Can’t you see I bent and broke for years on end because of it?
But this is said and done,
Tonight I find a spark and find my heart.
And if you hate that I did it, go pound sand.
I lived for this moment of freedom
For so many years and here it is!
Even you can’t take it away from me!
Tonight I found my spark
Even though for so long
I was trapped in the dark…
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