Here I was sitting alone again
As my friends go by living
Their life without me.
Can’t help but feel like a burden when I tag along.
There’s this deep yearning to
Find a place where I can belong.
These Summer days just keep
Passing me by and I ask myself why don’t I start living them instead.
It’s a bittersweet aftertaste,
When you’re stuck isolated and alone.
When you think that you’re a failure
That can stand up on your own…
But no more wasting this
Time. I’ve cried so many tears
And this time I’m gonna make something
New. Something that shows off who I am.
And maybe they can think I’m washed up,
Judge me all they could ever want!
But I’m living for myself,
So they’ll just have to get used to this bittersweet aftertaste.
I was so tired of living in others' shadows for so long.
The mirror in my reflection just couldn’t stand looking at itself.
I wanted so hard to give up and let the pain hurt me away and away…
I wanted so much pain to just be my endless escape…
I was so alone and had no one else.
Couldn’t even pick up my phone,
Even though everyday I wished someone would
Call me.
It’s like a foggy dream,
My head in the clouds as I
Reach for anything to ground me back in reality.
Some days I would just wish this day would be it for me…
But that was the past,
Here I am and I made it out stronger.
They can judge me for who I am but
I’m free from that despair that these dark thoughts caused me.
The tidal waves just took me in,
Day by day!
It was so hard to escape my own pain.
I had no voice as I called for living water to quench my thirst for living.
But now I’m free, free to be whatever I want to be.
No more existing as a slave to this depression.
And if it keeps on coming back,
I’ll swim my way out again.
And who cares if I’m on a different path?!
This is my own story to tell!
No matter what comes my way I’ll always
Find my way out and swim this endless ocean of despair to find my place to belong.
I’m finally not alone!
This doesn’t have to be the end of me!
The knife doesn’t have to be in my hands anymore.
I can finally just be, without any remorse.
And maybe there’ll always be a bittersweet aftertaste
Since what happened was out of my control.
But now I’m not alone!
Now I’m not alone.
And if it comes back again,
I’ll swim my way out.
The waves crashed against me for so long
And now I’m awake again, away from that endless nightmare…
No more bittersweet aftertastes for me!
I’m living for myself!
No more being afraid of those judging me!
I’m awake again, the waves crashed against me and here I am.
Here I am!
No more bittersweet aftertastes for me.
I can finally dream my own dream
Instead of those choosing for me.
Comentarios